Have you ever fallen in love?
I have gone and fallen in love, folks. And I don’t mean that it’s complete, or finished–because I don’t think that it’s finished or complete in any way. It’s perfect, amazing, satisfying. This feeling that just when I believe my heart is full, it gets bigger and makes room for more– it’s something I could have never imagined, and here I am.
And in fine form, I went and fell in love with a brilliant, kind, loyal, protective, sweet butch whose life plans to change the world for the better have taken them geographically far away from me. We were in the same place, and now we aren’t, but maybe we will be again. But in the meantime, I find myself working hard to hold up my end of a long distance relationship, and part of that is sending notes/cards/letters/care packages, talking on the phone a lot, trying to figure out video chat, etc– but the other thing I did before my sweetie left town was give them my ipod for this first 5 week stint of being about 600 miles apart… and it was pre-loaded of course.
On that little black ipod there is a 4gb playlist of music in five playlists. My sweetie has been gone 2 weeks already, and one of the things I’ve been doing to cope is to listen to these playlists of sappy/sweet/sexy love songs pretty much incessantly.
If y’all aren’t listening to Raphael Saadiq, you’re missing out.
And how about this one that I’m super hooked on right now… [It's even the ringer on my phone when my sweetie calls.]
This one is from the tearjerker list.
No love song compilation would be anywhere near complete without Nina Simone.
And of course, I’m a lucky, lucky butch myself– Dreamboat sends me a song of the day every day. today I even got two.
So yea, I’ve been quiet lately. I’ve been pretty busy.
